The Lady continues slowly to awaken and reform.
A few days later, in early 1973, Helen was watching a pianist on television playing different Fantasies by Mozart, Schumann, and Chopin. Soon she realised that the Lady was sitting on the chair opposite her, She was still attired in her stiff Victorian silk dress, and was weeping. The beauty of the music had moved her to tears. This was a complete contrast to the sordid conditions she still lived in, surrounded by the racket of unhappy and resentful entities. At the end of the programme Helen switched off the television and prayed for help on behalf of the Lady. The Lady's thoughts came clearly and sadly into her consciousness.
Lady - "Oh, God, he knows! My son knows! I can't bear it. I can never face him. What have I done? What terrible crime have I committed against this boy, this helpless creature who was my son, whom I bore? I am so ashamed. And when we meet, what of that? For my Shining Sister has already told me we shall meet. And he is no longer deranged. He is whole and sane and in the light, whilst I am in the darkness. What will his judgement of me be? Will he censure me? Will he hate me? Oh God, why had I not been warned? Yet would I have listened? Would I ever have believed? If only I had known. Dear God, if I could have known that Thy Law excepts no-one. If only I had had compassion."
The Lady, closed away in her remorse, was unaware of Helen. She was wrapped in a web of fear, and existing only in the agony of the spirit. Helen herself was running into the danger of identifying too closely with her, and becoming drawn into the obsession of her terror. To help protect herself from losing control, the words and sound of an old hymn came to mind:
"Love Divine, all loves excelling,
Joy of Heaven, to earth come down.
Fix in us They humble dwelling.
All Thy faithful mercies crown."
A wave of peace seemed to infiltrate into the room and the danger of obsession was past. Soon she felt the presence of the Boy, the Lady's son, now a figure of light and love, and his radiance shimmered over his mother. "She could not see him, but she was touched by the potency of his love. Her soul was calmed by his, and by the great power that flooded the room. In deep meditation, I allowed the whole problem to pass from me. It would be worked out in planes of the spirit far removed from my cognisance. I was but the witness and the recorder. When, later, I returned to my everyday consciousness, the Mistress had gone. But the Boy remained."
Boy - "My mother is progressing. Her mind will clear, and her eyes will open, as she becomes aware of my love, and no longer dreads my judgement. For love opens the way, my friend...love and strength to face error."
There were further visits from the Shining Brother and the old earthbound servant, but it was not until several months had passed before the Lady returned, in April, 1973.
Lady - Please help me! I am frightened. I am lost. I cannot bear it any longer. I am sorry for all I did. It was terrible and I am miserable. Oh God, if there is a God, forgive me.
Helen (putting on a record of Elgar's "Ave Verum" sung by a choir in Worcester Cathedral) - Help her. Help her to find the Light!
The Lady returned after Easter. "She was sitting in the armchair opposite me, a very different apparition from the distraught entity who had wept her remorse. She seemed calm, and although she still appeared to wear a stiff silk dress, such as was fashionable in her time, it was no longer black. Now it apeared to me to be blue, a deep midnight blue, which shimmered, as though shot with gold, when she moved. 'She is very beautiful,' I thought, sensing a subtle change about her."
Lady (without her former arrogance) - I have been brought to see you. I am told that you will understand.
Helen - I will understand, for I, too, have been through trouble and through a cleansing.
Lady - A cleansing? I suppose that is what you might call my own experiences...a cleansing?
The Brother of Light was standing beyond the Lady, though she was unaware of his light shining on her.
Ladfy - Yet the experience was more of an acceptance.
Helen - Acceptance of what?
Lady - Acceptance of that which I have done, during the time I was on earth. Acceptance of my own guilt. Acknowledgement that I have hurt others, terribly.
Helen - Me too.
Lady - You? But you are not dead. You are not over here. How can you see yourself as you really are?
Helen (prompted by the Brother) - We do not have to wait for death to be shown the results of our actions.
Lady - If only I had known! I believe, truly I am of the persuasion that I could have changed then. I could have altered myself.
Helen - Could you? Were you not so enclosed and wrapped in selfishness that you were unaware of the harm you did?
Lady - Then I cannot be altogether BLAMED, can I?
Helen - Nobody blamed you. You accused yourself, though only after your inner eyes were opened and you SAW.
Lady - You mean by that...after I had been made to live in that terrible place? You are telling me that it took the horror of being in contact with others who in their lives had been hard and cruel, even brutal, and were still the same, to show me myself?
Helen - Perhaps it made you hate what you saw in others, yet never realised in yourself, so that you longed to change, to find peace of mind and soul.
Lady - I prayed to God, as I had never done before. I asked forgiveness for some of the things I had done. I still don't know whether there is a God, or even a Saviour, yet I prayed.
Helen - And you received an answer from God?
Lady - I do not know whence the answer came.
Helen - He sent a Sister of Light to you even when you thought yourself in hell.
Lady - It is true. The lovely Sister came. She gave me hope, after I had almost lost all. She helped me to leave that awful place and she brought me here, where once again I could listen to the music that I loved and see flowers and beautiful things. And often she talked with me. I am sure she is an angel of God. Then I met a Brother. He filled my soul with awe, yet he is indeed wonderful. Could he have been a messenger of God? Is that possible? Could they have been God's answer?
Helen - They must have come from some loving Father to help you. But you needed love and correction. Could we not say that they held up a mirror that you might see yourself as you truly were, that you might be inspired to change that image?
Lady - (shuddering) - That is just what they did! It was hell itself. I went through a hell of remorse. Never again, never again, please God, such a hell, such an agony of unmasking.
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